“I’ve developed a new philosophy… I only dread one day at a time.” ~Charlie Brown (Charles Schulz)
The airplane tickets were booked. I was committed. And the second the deed was done, I began to regret it. I felt SICK inside!
I didn’t talk about the trip. I tried not to think about it. And the closer it got, the sicker I felt inside. And, I confess, I started feeling a little bit resentful of my husband for “making” me go. I wasn’t thrilled with any part of it. Not even the whole “it’s our birthday weekend and we’re going to Colorado to celebrate it!” aspect of it.
I wanted to cancel the trip, back out, wished I could get food poisoning or something, ANYTHING, that could excuse me from a return to my home state. But no such luck. Too soon I found myself ascending from the tunnels at DIA.
I was home.
And I felt o.k. about it all.
And then I left the airport and actually headed to where I used to live. A very strange sensation.
“…That sensation, that’s what I want.” (Picabo Street)
Uhhh, no thanks. My new philosophy was in full force.