"Nothing is more difficult, and therefore more precious, than to be able to decide." (Napoleon Bonaparte) What to do? What to decide? Discovering the answers to these questions was uppermost in my mind for the rest of that month. Add to that the previous month where I'd simply been "observing" things, and I realized I'd been pondering and thinking about Bachelor #5 for quite some time (even when I was trying not to.) In the course of trying to come to a decision I thought about my past, I thought about the present, and I thought about my future. I wondered what my parents would advise me to do. I consulted my sister and trusted friends. I prayed. I read the scriptures. I tried to be very thorough in all details; I brainstormed every possible thing related to re-marriage, marrying Bachelor #5, and the impact of such a decision on my family, children, extended family, friends, employment, new life, faith, finances, hopes, dreams, the future... EVERYTHING. And in the end, "Everything that can be counted does not necessarily count; everything that counts cannot necessarily be counted." (Albert Einstein) I just couldn't come to a decision.